Thoughts of the Day

Today is a momentous occasion for celebration. I have taken some time to watch CNN today and their coverage of the Barach Obama's Presidential Inauguration. I am very excited at the possibilities that our country is now on the verge of. Yes we have a lot of challenges ahead of us as a country but we also have a lot to be proud of. I am confident for the first time in a long time my country. I am very proud to be an American.

For those of you that have not seen it here is Barack Obamas Oath and Inaugural Address:

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Poem: Setting Sun

Your arms wrapped around my stomach
Chin resting on my shoulder
Standing on the edge of the Grand Canyon looking out into the sky
At peace with each other
No worries and No Pain
Feeling your breath on my skin
Smelling your sweet perfume intoxicate my soul
You hold me close to you
Not letting me go We stabilize each other
Feet planted on the ground solidly
Each of us helping the other to stand tall and strong
The cool desert air chills our skin
Feeling the goosebumps on my arm your rub them to keep me warm
Loving the way you make me feel
We stare off into the setting sun

Poem: Untitled Poem

Sliding through the blades of grass at a snails pace
My body undulates against the ground like a snake slithering
Feeling the dirt and moisture all around me
I want to stand up and dust myself off but cant see what I am doing
The grass is too tall and it blocks the sun
Surrounded by darkness on all sides
Cold sets in and my body becomes chilled
Bones brittle and grinding together with each movement
I reach for support grasping out
But there is nothing there but fragile grass
Finally I muster the strength to stand
My body racked with pain I grimace forward towards the light
The cold dusky sky clouds at my back
Pain lingers but I move forward not giving up hope
Taking one step at a time
Finding a nice open area with a chair
Sitting to relax my aching muscles I take in the sun
Letting it energize and rejuvenate my body
Hoping for peace in this dark world
I look forward onto the openness of life
I will linger here longer

Music: Nothing Else Matters - Apocalyptica

Just thought I would share a very calm and soothing song with everyone. These guys can sure rock out with the cellos.

Poem: Sorry

Sorry for the pain I have caused
I am like a walking explosion
Blowing peoples hearts and feelings to bits
Moving slowly
Doing damage to many
Sorry for what I have done
Stopping immediately
But is it too late
The hate is already built up for me
I am enemy number one
I have dug my own grave
Life will not be the same
I can only move forward and redeem myself
If this is the worst thing I have done
Then I have nothing to worry about
Yes it was bad, but I am not a crack dealer or murderer
All I can ask is your forgiveness
I will work myself out of this hole
Fighting tooth and nail
Shouting at the top of my lungs
Letting everyone know that I am sorry
I am human and have made a mistake
Life can go on
Turning your back on your fellow human being is never wise
No matter what they have done
Please give me the opportunity at redemption

Music Video: Lady Gaga - Poker Face

I am addicted to this song and video now lol.

Poem: Isolated

Isolated against the world I feel like a shipwrecked soul
The sand on my skin like sandpaper rubbing
Breaking me down day in and day out
The warm saltwater bathes my skin
Sun beating down on my head heating my hair like a warm blanket
A crab walking across the sand is my only friend
Its red body hardened by the elements much like me
A home of leaves keeps the rain off of me
Stars are my personal night light
I long for companionship
Despite the fact that I am away from the stresses of daily life
I am missing out on so much
I am isolated and alone

Current Mood: Upset

Frustration
Sorrow
Anger
Worry
Anxiety

The above emotions are coursing through my body currently. Just thought I would share.

Poem: Removing The Pain

The pain spreads through your body
Like a drink spilled onto a tablecloth
Your body soaking it up and taking it all in
I wish I could stop it
Fight it for you
Take your pain
Stop your hurting
If I could I would trade places with you
Despite your pleadings not to
Knowing that I am not able to
Willing to give you anything I can to make your days brighter
Because if you smile I smile
If you laugh I laugh
Making you happy is my mission in life
Not going anywhere
Don't give up on yourself or on me
I am not running away
Here to hold you in my arms
Taking you to another place far far away from sickness and pain

Poem: Crush From Afar

I wrote this poem per the request of one of the ladies on the AfterEllen forum. Thanks for the recommendation. I look forward to other members recommending poem ideas!!

You pass me by everyday on our way to class
A smile on your face and a confidence in your step
Your Coffee in your hand
Backpack carelessly slung over your shoulder
Your ipod headphones in your ears as you move to your own music
Wanting to talk to you but not knowing what to say
A lump in my throat every time I begin to speak
Palms sweaty with anticipation
My heart beats faster and faster the closer I get to you
Turning away at the last moment
Wishing I had the courage to approach you
Afraid of rejection and worried that you will not notice me
Worried I don't have a chance in hell at winning your love
Everyday we go through the same door
I tell myself I will stop you each day and make small talk
Today is the day and I am going to make it happen
You only live once and I am going to take a chance

Poem: Lightning Strike

Lightning can strike anywhere
It is random like winning the lottery
Never striking the same place twice
It can strike the same person more than once
I feel like I have been struck by lightning
Feeling the energy all around me
Being with you has made me feel this way
Electricity moves throughout my body
Feeling the tingling throughout my arms and legs
Like pins and needles lightly prickling my skin
Wind blowing against me like a blustery gust of wind
Rain pelting against my skin
Matting my hair to the back of neck
My shirt clinging to my skin
Water sloshing in between my toes

Poem: The Feather

A bird flies gracefully through the air
Swooping in and out of the clouds
As the bird veers to the left one of its feathers comes loose
The feather drifts aimlessly
Spiraling to the ground
Moving with the wind
The air blowing through it as it moves about
It reaches the earth
Coming to rest under the shade of a mossy oak tree
Grass moist from the early morning dew
Blades of grass cling to the feather
The feather is nestled like a baby in the arms of its mother
As the bird continues to fly never noticing a missing feather

Poem: Hurting You

It pains me to know that I have hurt you
I don't like knowing you are sick, hurt or in pain
I feel even worse knowing that I have caused it
When I feel like I am ready to give up, you are there for me
Bringing joy in my life and putting a smile onto my face
I feel like I am soaring through the clouds on a warm day
The wind is at my back propelling me through the air
Your smile brings a smile to my face and a warmth to my heart
Sharing time with you is something I cherish
Everyone makes mistakes and you love me despite my faults
I know this because I love you despite your faults
A longing is present for you that shakes me to the core
I love sharing my day with you
Sharing my feelings hopes and dreams
Talking about random adventures
Wanting to hold you in my arms
Making everything better

Adagio For Strings

I have always loved this song. A friend posted a comment about listening to this and I thought I would post two versions of it here for your listening pleasure. It is hauntingly beautiful and very powerful. The choir version was used in Platoon one of the best Vietnam War films.

Samuel Barber Adagio For Strings op. 11 Choir


DJ Tiesto Version:

Poem: WTF

WTF...
Do the words I love you mean to you
Apparently not much
Within less than a week you are with another
My heart is melting
A fire has consumed my soul
Wishing I had never fallen for you
Wishing I had never been willing to invest myself in you
In your words I am "clingy"
In my mind I am caring
Yes, I wear my heart on my sleeve
My heart is not there to be smashed
It actually makes me a sensual and caring individual
I am full of passion
I am speechless....WTF

Music Video: Bloc Party - One Month Off

I am loving this video and song by Bloc Party!

Poem: New Year, New Start

The music is playing
Whistles blowing all around me in joy of celebration
Confetti falling to the ground
People hugging and kissing
Wishes of the new year being passed on
I force a smile to cover my frown
Despite being surrounded I feel more alone than ever
Wanting no one else around me but you
I try to think happy thoughts
A tear almost escapes my eye
I know I should be happy but life is hard
I go outside to escape
Getting fresh air to clear my mind
Needing a fresh start in life and love
I look to the future and the possibilities are endless
My future is hopeful and enticing
It is a new year and a new start!

Happy New Year

I wanted to wish everyone a happy and healthy new year!

Kisses, Hugs and Nibbles,
Jenn